unpredictable journal

26 December 2006

Morning, it's only 8am and I'm awake. I think mom really can sense that I'm broke bahs. Hurhur... I already said I don't want but she insist so I take eh? But I'll make sure I return back to her once I gotten my pay. Later going to help that idiotic to apply GIRO then help mummy to pay utilities bills. Think there're lots of things I wanna buy, but temporary cannot buy first worx. And I must remember to call that Janet, hell... Oct pay delay until now. Sighs... lots of things need to do. Hopefully later late evening 'll receive call from Dennis. Just hoping that there's work either tonight or tomorrow night all the way till school starts eh? Really need money loads.

I hope I'll luv myself more

07:55

25 December 2006

I think this year haven't been a good year for me. I still remember Tuesday evening dad asked me to go bank and help him to apply the GIRO think that day I damn suay kena scolded by him. Then Sunday morning came back home, he said no need. Cuz mom told him that I stomachache. Is not stomachache lol, is ever since they day I went to see the mao dan sensei I come my period, but a very abnormal one. I never complaint pain. Mom said the wrong things only. Sighs... then just now I overheard their [idiotic n mom] conversation. Mom was asking him if he need me to do anything since I'm at home. Then he said: "No need, ask her do things she complaint here and there pain". Today is Cindy aunt birthday, I told him that I'm going over to eat dinner and he said I tell lies. -.-" sians ley. Whenever there's problem at home, granny and aunt were all there for me. Then when they ask me go over for dinner, can I say no? They remember my birthday, but my does he remember? When I told him is my birthday, he say birthday every year also must celebrate meh? Wah... I diam diam speechless nothing to say le. Luckily, I've my pillar of strength if not I sure die de. Birthday not happy, X'mas also not happy.

Went to buy FA cookies for aunt, actually wanna get another box with more cookies de, but cousins say that she like those tin box. So I took the tin box norhx. Then they say that she like swensen disney cake wanna buy that for her but granny not dare to eat too creamy one, so choose another with almond nuts de. One small log cake cost us 47bucks wah liao, I paid 35 for it and I'm broke now. But is worth it, cuz she bought me too mani things on my birthday lers. Hope she's happy today. Reach home for nothing, he's mad again. I think next time when he die, even hell also don't wanna take him. I'll endure once more, and I'll definitely move out.

I hope I'll luv myself more

15:11

24 December 2006

There was a study done where a control group of 100 people were divided into 2 groups. 50 people watched a very funny, tears of laughter type of movie. 50 watched a very sad, tears of compassion type of movie. At the end of the session, the researchers collected the happy tears and sad tears using eyedroppers. They found that the happy tears are made up of brine, salt water and not a great deal else. However, the sad tears were found to contain the same chemicals and enzymes that are found in tumor, ulcers and other such as lumps, bumps and sickness through out the body. This test concluded that when crying in sadness, is literally flushing out all the toxic-chemicals that accumulates and are a part of sadness/heartache experience. Therefore if one holds back those tears, it will find somewhere else to deposit themselves and prolonged, lack of crying will guarantee that the body 'll accumulate a huge amount of pollution and toxicity that should have been released through the tears is it any wonder that the eyes sting so much when we hold back our tears.

Lesson from the study: Cry your heart out when you're sad, lonely, depressed, stressed, or pressurized. It's good for your health.

Is just a day off and I already miss work like hell. Though this work is pretty bored as in checking the work order that the line leader is running then print the bom. Carry the file with the bom, tick the part no against the bom, give the QA chop on the initial run bom, tick the inprocess according to the sampling size, copy the running no under out going, check the inkjet, carton label, pallet label and weight of the 10 samples, give the QA chop on the pallet outgoing list, record bom of the day in the checklist, key in the data and filing up the documents... I still enjoy it real much. I think out of 3 factories that I've work in, Ryder's the only one that I don't miss so much. Alpha log and Teckwah really gave me lots of happy memories. Especially all the colleagues that I'm working with.

How true of friend tagged, in life there's always departing and meeting. So sometimes I just think that it was really good that we were just friends. Because I always think that I'll failed to commit myself into it. But thanks for all the memories that you've gave.

Alright it has already past 12 so is X'mas. Here wishing everyone Merry X'mas worx! Think I'm going to sleep and wake up early in the morning as there are lots of things pending for me to clear.

I hope I'll luv myself more

22:01

Sigh so sad to know that yesterday night might be our last day. Has been working the entire week and only 2days we were working 12hours, and out of these two days, only one day I was like busying like hell. Very worried sick that it might really be our last day as I really ENJOY working with all the staffs there.

Something that I'll never forget... that is what happened at work yesterday.

I shouldn't have given that QA chop on the initial run bom when I have not yet see the first sample of the order. Johnny was asking whether the inkjet (printed YWN0001659) was ok as the line was shaking (still warming up). I checked with Tian tian and Dennis but they told me to ask Robert and he didn't tell me whether the inkjet is accepted or not. So I didn't pursue any further but to give that QA chop on the initial run. When I went to the back to copy the running no, and Johnny asked what work order we're running then I discovered that the inkjet printed on the box doesn't tally with my bom (inkjet should be printed YWN1717) so I quickly went to ask Tian Tian whether I'm running YWN001615 or 001717. If it's YWN001615 then I'll be checking the wrong bom, if it's YWN001717, then it'll be Johnny printing the wrong inkjet no. Sighs. Because of this, Tian Tian quarrelled with Hui Yi. Because of this, they called Dennis up (he was occupied with work at level 3). Because of this, both Tian Tian and Dennis has to answer to the boss on behalf of me. I felt very guilty, in the sense that I wasn't serious I was so irresponsible just like what Hui Yi had said about me. I should have take the initiative to take the sample from Johnny instead of waiting for him to pass it to me. As this is the job of a QA. But from this incident, I finally see how one person protect herself by pushing the blame to the QA, and the QA to the production leader. I really 've got to say, both Tian Tian and Hui Yi really take care of their own staff. Tian Tian was protecting me by saying lots of logic and and Hui Yi said lots of thing to protect Johnny. Sighs, what make me cries inside was what Tian Tian had said with a smile [Is not the usual her, or perhaps she just favours me lots]: "Not to worry, I'll answer to the boss on behalf of you and I'll or Dennis 'll carry this fault for you as well. It's not the first time that this happened, don't be frightened." And Dennis remarked with a smile: "Next time, just be more careful". If I were to choose either one of them to cover for me, I'll choose Tian Tian cuz she knows how to fight for herself but Dennis 'll only stand down there and get a dressing down by boss. More over, he already have lots of things to answer for the mistakes that he made.

I hope I'll just have an X'mas night break and they'll call us back to work again on Tuesday. I hope Dennis 'll still be there guiding me if we're back. As whole production people 'll change (the morning shift to night shift and night shift to morning shift) Dennis told me that he still prefer night shift though is real tiring in the sense that he couldn't get to sleep during day time. He would be playing games, sleep, wake up, sleep and wake up. Whatever it's, I really miss them loads.

I hope I'll luv myself more

07:34

23 December 2006

Wow, it has been ages since I last update my bloggie, miss it so much. Still remember Monday I said there's work and I really wish to go so much? Hees, yepp I been to work since Monday. Btw, that evening I was super duper damn angry with baby but I didn't show out just a lil' moody. My first arrive, I was being asked to be the QA by Hui Yi (contractor leader). So I was under Dennis (my head, he very tall worx, wow... like his long thin thin legs. Very nice, but sometimes 'll mood swings one, v scare of him). I found myself learn things very slow norhx, iyo... only 3rd days of work slightly better. Haa...

The day before yesterday dad was mad with me again. Sigh, very ridiculous for nothing kena scolded by him. Yesterday morning also. But today better le, sigh. He everytime run out of money to use 'll scold either mom or me. Why lidat worx, so sad.

One week has just past, how I wish time 'll stop right at this moment. Cuz I'll definitely miss my senior (Dennis, Tian Tian [she favours me more, also don't know why lidat. But I very sad worx, cuz she against all my friends. My order, there always be a menu for me to choose. But for them, they only have fried rice to eat. I really pity my friends norhx.]) I miss working night shift with my friends, the fun we had together. Sighs.

Anyway, alfred so sweet worx. Miss him so much. How I wish I can talk back him face-to-face. Hees...

I hope I'll luv myself more

07:37

18 December 2006

Is the very first day of holiday, I'm glad I'm back to pink health after falling sick for 19days. All 've to thanks Mummy for looking after me whole day and night. Hees. Anyway, there's work tonight but all said not going, what should I do? I really feel like working but nobody is with me. Worst, no transport. *Madness...

I hope I'll luv myself more

13:52

15 December 2006

Finally feeling better maybe because last night having diarrhoea and vomit. Head still a lil' pain, still having cough and flu. But think shouldn't be a problem going to school.

Been to her blog knowing that she has a lot of problems yet I couldn't help. I feel very useless as a friend. Kelly, I know you for 9years already and I've never see the fragile side of you, so you must be strong ok? Be his pillar of strength and I'll be here for you. Hang on there please for God 'll bless him.

Mummi asked if I wanna tag along with her to KL this afternoon. So nice of her paying everything for me. But not sure if my parent allows me to go when I just recovered. Ask mom again this afternoon.

- unhappy

;(

I hope I'll luv myself more

08:37

14 December 2006

Yesterday been over to Granny House, half way shoes spoilt. Kinda suay... Then met Helen Aunt and we went up together. Think Alvin uncle and brothers super kelian cuz the sisters waxed his legs hair, forced then to eat xtra spice noodle, used lipstick forced them to kiss and fill up the big heart shape drawn on the T-shirt, eat the wasabi, eat the whipped cream and guess that is a hidden pig heart. Griselda Aunt was kinda regret to have asked her sisters to come. Hee. The door was open and he was forced to sing a song and asked if he's allowed to go in. So sweet.

Dinner was at Orchard Hotel. Was a very grand dinner that I've ever attened. Think was too sick to eat, didn't eat much either. Mummy had some drinks was a lil' giddy and that's what I hate most. Sometimes, couldn't figure what she really wants. Sigh.

Still having fever of 38.7 hopefully 'll feel better later on. Cough getting worse, chest kinda pain.

I hope I'll luv myself more

10:40

12 December 2006

Yesterday so shag worx, cuz I going to work place alone and I board the 6pm bus which results me to reach there before 7pm.Wah biang I alone sit down there playing my hp game till Dennis came out. I thought time up but not yet but still I went in and see if there's anything I can help first. In the end didn't help since morning shift QA was still there, end up chatting with Jin Mei and Dennis. Iyo, madness... Dennis having headache so left home at 7.30pm then Jin Mei left at 11.15pm. Before she leave, she reminded Johnny to take care of me. Johnny stunned and said: "she should take care of me instead lah" Left me the only QA down there. Then whenever there's problem I've to solve it myself nehx. ='( Life w/o Tian Tian [Did I mention that she's clearing her annual leave? So she won't be coming any more, sigh.] is really miserable. I don't like to work with those china girls worx, they didn't check probably as I caught 2 boxes of missing 256 PID Label. Horrible eh? But can't blame them as they work 24hours, yes 24hours with 2 breaks only. So I just remind them to check probably and didn't remark anything else. ButI wrote it as a remark for my QA [Jin Mei n Dennis] to see, see if they wanna highlight to the management, Jin Mei say she want to prove that I'm doing my job mahs. Hees. Anyway, very nice of Johnny kept asking if I wanna eat last night.

Johnny: "JL you wanna order anything to eat?"

Me: *Shake head*

Johnny: "Not hungry meh?"

Me: Taken my dinner at home already.

Johnny: "Order lah, eat a lil"

Me: "No friend accompany me eat ley" [Cuz those clock in 1030 by right no break one]

Johnny: "I accompany you eat larh"

Me: "Nvm I not hungry norhx."

Then he very lor sor ask again

He: "Really don't want eat?"

Then I joke with him

Me: "No money to eat ley, haven't get my salary"

Johnny: "You want eat or not, I buy for you"

Me: "Don't want, don't want. Kidding only"

Then 2am he ask me again...

He: "Hungry or not?"

Me: "No arh..."

He: "Really arh?"

Me: "Yah"

He: "Sleepy or not?"

Me: "A lil'"

He down there simling only lor.

I think he's in good mood worx, cuz he only talk to me after one week. Hahax. He's nice larh... everybody there's nice. Just a few arrogant one. But I still enjoy working with all. Hees. This morning, Jin Mei reach workplace damn early norhx, think around 7am plus. She listen to my complaints then dismiss me already. I love her so much worx, unlike Dennis, 7.30am++ le still don't wanna let me off. Sometimes, still dare to mood swings. Iyo he arh... terrible larh.

Today think because of that idiotic again, I lost my punch card. In the end asked Xue Ni to call Dennis cuz I p.s to call himto let him know that I lost it and ask if he's able to write a new record for me. After awhile, he called my hp and say...

He: "JL, I found your punch card" [In a very elated tone]

Me: "Really arh? Where you found it?"

He: "Forgotten what he said le but is like wanna me reward him lidat"

Me: "Where you found it?"He: "No lah, Xiao Zhu found it one"Me: "Oh... then I should treat Xiao Zhu eat marhs."

He: "But now I help you keep one ley..."

Me: "You can don't keep for me marhs... Jin Mei can help me keep de"

He: "Iyo if I knew it earlier on... [Forgotten what he said again]

Me: "Haha..."

He: "Eee, never say thank you arh?"

Me: "Orh, thank you thank you"

He: "Iyo, lidat only arh?"

Me: "Hmm...?"

He: [Still waiting for my reward]

Me: "K lah, buy you dinner. You order I pay for you tonight"

He: "You got so good arh?"Me: "Iyo, then what you want?"

Xue Ni: "Iya kiss him lah kiss him lah."

Me wanna use bottle to throw at her.

Xue Ni: "What time liao, still don't wanna start work?"

Me: "Dennis, Xue Ni say you ley"

He: "Huh, what she say"

Me: "She say what time already still don't wanna start work"

He: "Haha... ok lah ok lah, don't chat with you already.Hee hee... "

He very cute one, everytime joke with me. But he can mood swings one... just like what my closest kakis in school treat us.

kkx wanna go orh orh lers. Hees, hope tonight got work so that I can buy them chocolate except Dennis cuz he headache mah. Plain water for him, hees.

I hope I'll luv myself more

20:27

Yesterday paper was easy think should be able to secure 85 and above eh? Think when we were waiting for the accounts class, I'm feeling so damn sick. My head was like cracking soon, do not know why. Feeling so feverish. ='( I thought I felt better that's why I stop taking my med, they kept urging me to see a doctor. Depends bah...

Something real happy was he smsed me last night. Although he forgotten the day we met, but at least he knew that is has been a year plus. Silly of him to 've said sorry that he couldn't take care of me like how I used to take care of him. At first I thought he has been to my bloggie but he said he hasn't been online for a week. What should I call this? =)

I hope I'll luv myself more

09:05

09 December 2006

Jie jie so er xin, this morning sms me: "Lin*2 u wanna go or not".

Anyway something to blog about yesterday. I met Kenny when I'm on my way back home. He was being approach by the financial consultant. But whats important is, he injured his face! OMG... hope it won't leave any scar on his face.

He's just someone nice, caring just sometimes somehow lack of patience. =) And he trimmed his hair, can't help laughing when I reminisce his facial expression at the bus stop that evening. =P

Looking for...

Someone who has coloured hair and nicely styled up neatly

Someone wear a spec w double eye lids

Someone has a tan skin tone

e day we become friend

I hope I'll luv myself more

21:06

08 December 2006

Overslept this morning so missed my audit and accpac. Hees, attened accounts but seriously till date I only 've a lil' idea of the current topic. Think 've to spend a lil' time of my weekend revising my accounts as well bahs. Cuz afterall, audit I only left with topic 3, 2 characteristics to memorise only. The rest recap should be good enough.

4pm then reach home, cuz went to shop shop with friend. Hmm, then after preparation quickly rush down to meet them. Hmm, sad to say pretty sians worx. Cuz I reached at 6pm then baby left head down to IMM to get the cake for min. Then the time she reach cafe cartel already 8pm. Ate pretty fast, cuz we share the gigantic portion. Left at 9pm cuz I need to rush back home, took cabby back home when reach interchange.

Sigh... think min have lots of house problems. Wish to help her norhx.

Hopefully 've job on Monday norhx, but mummy say Thursday then can work. Cuz Wednesday aunt wedding. Cannot don't go... =( Ya lor... entire life only once ley.

I hope I'll luv myself more

23:19

07 December 2006

I've been sleeping the entire day and noon. Just woke up had my dinner and medicine taken. Thought of doing some revision for Monday paper but I was like so... absent-minded eh? Last night sms Ginny and she told me she only have Hougang for me to work. Have all other promoters resume work or she only locate promoter for some outlets only? I do not know, perhaps... tomorrow I shall check with Janet. If all promoters are back, and I'm not... then I'll wanna end my work. Just called Terrance and he asked if I can start work tonight. Too bad, if Monday I've no paper... I'm sure I'll work for him. I think now I've to pin high hope, hoping for his call on Tuesday night bahs. I really need a night shift job for the entire holiday, best with lots of OT on both weekend. Just feel like working like a robot and earn lots of money to pay for my bills, pamper myself with clothings or things that I like and side some aside for the March KL trip with my dearies Qin, and Kelly. Best if lil' Bernice gonna tag along with us.

I think I'm so sick that I just miss someone so much. Was wishing him to be there taking care of me like how I took care of him when he's sick. 2 more days is another day where I marked as a special day. I do not know if you still dropping by my page, I do not know if you saw my nick that I'm sick. I... I just wanna receive your sms. I miss you

I hope I'll luv myself more

19:19

Yesterday night around 11pm wanna sleep but was like coughing non-stop, the medicine don't even help but making it more worse. 1.34am received call from baby she cried and my heartache. Min told me that she's drunk, dancing and don't wanna go back home. When talking to her, she kept crying and calling my name. In the end I got so worried sick for her that I took cabby down to find her. Zhen, Min and I used all our strength to pull her in the cab. Not sure why she's behaving like that, but glad that she still guai guai go back home with my accompany. I manage to get back home before dad wake up. Sigh, how I wish I've been there with them.

-Heartache

I hope I'll luv myself more

11:07

06 December 2006

A clip that makes me kinda regret of giving up on my greatest interest.

Gonna 've my dinner (Actually I ate le, but dad bought my share. Gotta eat again cannot waste food, cuz I used to 've a guy keep telling me this)

Alright wanna go watch my show lers.

I hope I'll luv myself more

22:01

Today think kinda of suay, thought that there's a general clinic behind the library in the end don't 've. Then checked out with friends what bus 'll pass by Jur Polyclinic in the end all replied very late. Waited for the bus for like half an hour and the bus driver told me that I should take another bus instead. Argh, so frustrated that I went back home to take things and took a cabby down to Jur Polyclinic. Realised that it has been closed for renovation, so went to BB one instead. Luckily the waiting time was pretty short. =) Actually I don't like to see doctor as I do not know how to describe my sickness. He asked if I need MC for the day I told him that I don't. What I really one is the medicine that can let me back to pink health soon.

Meet Kelly at JP by right is to have lunch together but in the end, she told me she already taken her lunch at home. But still we went to the kopitiam she've dessert and I've my sambal fried rice. Nice nice worx. Hees. Shop around then went back home lers.

Not long after reaching home, went to meet Gina at IMM cuz wanna go there get something as well. Saw Jing Xiang working down there, glad that he still recognise me. Actually wanna go talk to him, but with friend... pai sey. Hmm... that's about all. Anyway I didn't go down and find my agent cuz I'm so damn hell lazy to travel all the way down. =(

I think my mom tonight can't sleep cuz her 4D run away. Sunday bought it at JP today hand itchy go change no, open. Her heartache... anyway she become clever le, cuz she know that I skipped school today. Hell, tomorrow is her off day... I feel like... not going to school again. But I know I can't.

I hope I'll luv myself more

21:11

05 December 2006

Think tomorrow not going to school, here my schedule

1) See doctor

2) Head down to Ngee Ann

3) Meet friends at Bugis

I don't think this week there's work. Think most probably I'll check out when gonna starts work again. If gonna wait for another few weeks, think I might as well find a new job. This job is nice and enjoyable but definitely not my agent. Why my pay is always not credited? That's the purpose why I'm making a trip down there tomorrow morning. Sighs.

I hope I'll luv myself more

19:10

04 December 2006

Fuck! I really feel like dying, was like coughing like hell in the morning when I was on my way to school in the MRT and there're so mani people kept looking at me. And was having flu at the same time, it was like wtf. And now is night time, cough's getting worse. I don't think I can sleep tonight, sobbiex.

Was so surprised to see lil' Joshua (my lil' handsome cousin) haa. He grew up le norhx, so cute quite obedient but then a lil' hot tempered. Was playing with him and Pearlyn the entire evening, they were having lots of fun that they do not want to go home. Shameful of lil' Joshua to throw his temper when his parents asked him to go back home. He cried, pinched his mummy.

Anyway, been ages since I last met my second aunt. Miss her so much, hees... and she's the only aunt that I've so much to catch up with. She kept touching my legs, said: "Smooth and fair". Kept asking me if I use lotion, I said no she don't believe. Hees. Hmm, mummy prepared fabulous dinner tonight. Chicken rice... drool. Didn't eat much cuz having cough norhx.

Lastly, today is baddix Jojo birthday. Here wishing you "Happy Birthday". Smuackiex.

-Breathless

I hope I'll luv myself more

21:58

03 December 2006

Having bad cough since night time woke up only at 1pm this afternoon. Around 2.30pm headed to JP with mom to pay the utilities bills. Mummy paid my last month handphone bill for me cuz I've money with her. Went to check on bank account, the pay not yet credited stupid agent... Tuesday I shall drop by her office to claim back all the hours that she owe me. After awhile head back home and get revised for tomorrow's mock paper. Didn't really revise much cuz was watching DVD with brother. After that, revise a lil' more there I come online to blog. Kor treat me a mac delivery! Nothing to be happy about cuz I treat him a sambal fried rice on Wednesday =P ...

M afraid that I become breathless after running tomorrow. Haa...

-Dying soon cuz of cough

I hope I'll luv myself more

20:29

02 December 2006

Jie jie and her hubby 've a tiff last night, mummy was so worried sick for them. So decided to drop by their place to see if jie jie is back home. I don't like my ~~dad~~ attitude when I told him that I accompanying mummy to jie jie house. Cuz he said: "Go there for what?!!" don't you worry for them, idiotic? I saw my elder brother, he become thinner ler, hais... sob. He bought mummy beer and mummy asked me to drink cuz I sick. Hahax... weirdo right?

Perhaps, I'm the devil cuz mummy and kor kor they all very mad with ~~dad~~ when I down with fever. I was caught in the rain all because of him. =P I don't like him since young, best if I can move out of this house asap. *Awaiting for the graduation day

This morning woke up at 6am cuz v xin ku, keep coughing non-stop until 8 then manage to sleep again. 9.30am woke up to revise my auditing, finally manage to memories unit 4 the definition, objectives, components and 11 characteristics of internal control. Surprisely it only took me an hour to memorise. =D

I hope I'll luv myself more

12:52

01 December 2006

This morning woke up late so didn't shower jiu go school, anyway is 2hours lesson only. I felt that going to school today was like a waste trip, cuz accpac m lost and I deleted everything I've done. Account class, lecturer went through Q4, but was not completed. But one thing good is that I get to know my CA mark. Sadly to announce that I didn't even manage to score at least a B just because of the difference of 2marks. I'm extremely stunned to see my mark as I manage to tally during CA day (that's my exam fears. I'm not afraid that I can't tally but afraid that I tally yet wrong). Totally taken aback, and I was so demoralized that I feel like crying. I tried to hold the tears back but still dropped a few until she cheer me up by telling me that she's my competitor and climb over her. Thanks girl.

I hope I'll luv myself more

13:28